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i thought everyone should get a chance to read of what a shitty person i am.... this is from a "friend" of mine... of course as you can tell our friendship is no longer... most of it is bogus shit.. of course you know she couldnt call me and TALK TO ME.. she couldnt sit down with me.. she has to write it in an email. knowing i never get online or check my email.... she.. needs to be a fucking adult and stay the fuck out of my business, but im letting you all in my business now... enjoy...
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this girl doesnt know what she's talking about.
Kristin, I don't mean to bitch and i don't want you to get all defensive and say i'm a bitch, i just want you to think about some shit before you go gettin' all pissed and freak out. First. I gotta say, what goes around comes around two times harder. Next, If you put half of your time into other things besides Nick, I think your life would be a lot better, or instead of bitching about how bad Nick is to you, think about what good he does for you. Second, Doesn't him not sayin' shit to his friends about you say anything to you?? I mean, If they didn't know you were still going out, What is that saying?? I know you don't like being "alone" but sometimes its gotta be done for awhile. You'll eventually find someone new. Honestly, If i were Nick, i woulda broke up with you a LONG time ago, do you ever stop and think WHY he lies to you?? because he doesn't want you to freak out on him. he doesn't wanna deal with you getting all pissy, which in the end, doesn't matter, because you just freak out anyways. And as for you feeling like shit....It goes with your people waiting on you hand and foot. Member the time we were going thru gary and you were like..i feel like a rich gurl comming thru here. that was wrong. WAY wrong..i couldn't even beleive you said that..but that was you, then i was thinkin' about how you used to be and how you are..u used to be so open to things, and non closed minded, you would hang out with some new people and be fine, and friendly and not care..but now its like..You're too good to hang out with anyone but who you already know. You don't want to meet new people, but you know what, sometimes you gotta move on and let things go. You can't just sit there and expect people to come to you. you can't sit there and bitch about how shitty people are, and what not. You have to except the fact that You aren't the best person, and for awhile you got comfortable with thinking you were, and now its kicking you in the ass. and maybe you don't realize it or don't want to..because you still want to think you are better, and as much as you don't want to admit it..you need to think about it. I know you know you are a jelous freak, but think about what you really are jelous of. and stop thinking so negetivly, This doesn't sound like you to post something so negetive. I don't know..I've just been upset with you lately and it kind of bugs me that you've changed into something we both used to not like. and I was/am scared to say somethin' to you cuz i know how you freak out and start sayin' shit that doesn't need to be said. or you just say FUCK OFF..and flip. I just think you need to do a self evalutation and actually look at the shit your going thru...and think about the shit you used to bitch about people doing, and Maybe you'll realize your doing almost the same thing..but really thinka bout..how you could be doing the same thing, instead of its different because i'm doing it, or i'm thinking this way....and think about the whole nick situation a little more and I know you think he treats you bad and stuff..but honestly..How would you handle this shit you put him through? and i obviously don't know his side of the story, so i can't say anythinga nd i haven't been around you in awhile, but that day seeing you go to Dan's house to try and kidnap him..maybe he just wants to spend time with his friends and just because you let yours go for him, doesn't mean he wants to do the same. He needs space and the more you try to take that away from him and make his life all abou tyou, the more he's gonna want space..and pull him away from you....its just the way it works...Just please think about shit before you go and flip out on me..I don't want this to turn into a huge fight, its shit i think is the truth and that needs to be said. I've held it in for a semi long time, and Now, that its gotten bad, i should open my mouth. Think about the past and how you acted, and how you treated people and saw people, and think of you now and how closed minded you have become. Its really different. and if you don't see it..You truely know that you really think you are better then people because your not finding faults with-in yourself your finding faults with other people around you...which in all reality, people are equal..I'm not saying i am the perfect human either. I know i have faults of my own. But, Its all a matter of how you deal with those faults and if you really think you have them. You have to grow one way or another and you usually change into the shit you talk most about, or the shit you say about someone..U end up being the same way without even knowing it..thats not just for you i find myself doing the same thing. thats just life. i think your growing up and You don't want to and the shit that you have already went thru of the "growing up" process you didn't learn the shit you were suppost to. and if you want to bitch about this shit that i'm saying and not really think about it and not be my friend at all..thats fine. I'm not gonna sit here and try to pretend everything is fine anymore. Or i'm not gonna call you to hang out, and do everything for you, and wait on you. I'm not about that. I'm not about not knowing if your gonna flip out on me or not. I don't like that. and if you want to end our friendship over this. thats fine. that just means I don't mean shit to you..which i probalby don't because you have Nick and Kate. but what are you gonna do if Nick breaks up iwth you for real? You'll have Kate..what if kate starts getting pissed off because your smothering her, and she wants to hang out with Danielle and you don't. Are you gonna sit at home and mope and be pissed about it? You gotta have other people to hang out with. you can't be so jelous. and i know you probably hate me becaue, you aren't my number one person. I can move on....and live without you..I don't depend on you. I think you depend on people and You aren't the center of attention anymore, and thats why you get pissed. and Kate and I guess Nick still think of you highly...but Nick is starting to think less and your getting scared. You can't always be Number one and people depending on you. it just doesn't work that way. I don't know..just honestly think about this shit..and if you don't want to be my friend..let me know..and i wont' say shit to you anymore..haha..that sounds like i'm in third grade, but i do need my skirt back either way..and i got your belly ring..we gotta trade back my moms starting to ask questions. well for now..i gotta go..I'm tired. and if your gonna bring this up to me, don't be shitty about it, that will get you NO WHERE with me. I WILL NOT put up with you yelling at me and telling me TO fuck off and blah blah blah...I'll hang up on you or leave your ass where ever. talk to me like i'm human and you care. I'm not a dog. but i am willing to talk to you about this..if you want..and give you more of an exlanation with you having responces.
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